I CANNOT HATE YOU

I cannot hate you

though you do not love me

and you make it plain to see

for you I am constantly suffering

for you I will keep giving

I do not hate you

I do not hate you

even when the pains from your abrasive violation

are and remain my most recurring sensation

even when with offensive arrogance you plunder

and pillage and loot, embezzle and filch

till there’s not even enough to pilfer

I do not hate you

I do not hate you

even though you are never there when I call

even though my cry for help is never heard

even though my pleas for counseling make you angry

it’s easier to just blame me and my past relationships

and so even when you torture me

I do not hate you

I do not hate you

we are one, unconsciously bound by blood

and I am the way to you in everything

even if you bite my fingers with the food I am offering

if you bruise my breast and waste it’s gifts

even if thanks to you I keep suffering

I can not hate you

My momma taught me better than that!

 

*Originally published on Facebook on the 9th of November 2009